Wednesday 29 January 2014

Song Idea - "Sunday, December 22nd, 2013"

During the holidays, our power went off for 86 hours, and while it was off, we stayed at my Grandmother's house. The first night we got there, her power actually went off as well, so we spent the night sitting around the table with candles as our only source of light, and I wrote this song. It's super rough, but hey, I'm no prodigy! It's basically about how we should be grateful for what we have, and we shouldn't take things for granted!


By the light of the fire
I sit in solitude
No noise, no distractions
Just me, thinking of You

Sitting by the candles
The lights, the flicker on and off
Illuminate the stillness
Like the flames in my heart

The radio comes on
The stillness is suddenly gone
But the thought of You still resonates
In my mind

Because You, Lord, You lived
Long ago, without the things we have now
You, Lord, You lived
Without lights, without cars, or online communication
Help us be thankful for what we have
Help us remember You this year (<-- this was originally "Christmas" but since it's past that I changed it)

Constant complaints
Shatter the air straight through
"I can't live without the internet!" and
"What are we going to do?"

But if you take some time
And just sit by the fire
And think about the One who saved us all
Then maybe you'll reclaim desire (<---- super rough, will be changing that)

The radio announcer says
"72 hours of dark"
How about instead of freaking out,
You remember Jesus, our very own spark

'Cause You, Lord, You lived
Long ago, without the things we have now
You, Lord, You lived
Without lights, without cars, or online communication
Help us be thankful for what we have
Help us remember You this year

Sunday 12 January 2014

Writer's Block

Blink, blink, blink.
I stare at a blank page.
The cursor flashes on and off, on and off, on and off.
I start to type.
"Hello everyone, I would like to talk abou-" [delete]...too formal.
"Waddup homie-" [delete]...too informal; no one will take me seriously.
I stare, and I stare, and I stare.
Why is it so hard to put my thoughts into words?

Blink, blink, blink.
It's almost hypnotizing, that little flashing line.
My mind is jumbled with possible phrases
But my fingers freeze up, unable to put what I'm thinking
To justice.
I just want to write about my passions:
Music, Abolition, God.
But I can't.

Blink, blink, blink.
"Sophie, you should start a blog!" I thought to myself,
That one day in March.
What was I thinking?
My heart wants to write, but
My mind thinks "You're not good enough."
And what do I listen to?
My heart, of course!
Because I've heard the song -
"Listen to your heart, when it's calling for you"
I want to prove my mind wrong.
"I AM good enough." I tell it.
But am I?

Blink, blink, blink.
If I'm truly good enough,
Then why is this so difficult for me?
"Maybe I'll try writing songs," I say.
I listen and listen and listen to the artists
I look up to.
They can do it, so I can too.
I play a chord on my guitar.
Starting off simple, with a G.
I wait for the words to come...
Nothing.
Maybe a Bm?
Still nothing.
Alright, alright. It must be a C.
I start to get frustrated.
Maybe, just maybe,
My mind has a point.

Blink, blink, blink.
The cursor seems to be staring at me,
Judging me,
Saying "Come on, Sophie, how hard can it be?"
I turn off my computer and switch to paper.
No more flashing.
No more pressure.
Surely it should be easier now?

Blink, blink, blink.
The lines on the page are running together
As I try my hardest to blink the tears of frustration
Out of my eyes.
I can't write.
I sigh heavily and rip the page up.
My mind won.
I guess writing just isn't for me.

[Writer's Block - an original poem by me]

Thursday 9 January 2014

Throwback Thursday: Blast From the Past!

Heyoo!

Gosh it's been a while...I'm currently sitting in the library at school, waiting to buy a textbook from a girl I met on Facebook. Normally, I would watch one of my many TV shows to pass the time, but things have changed in the last few days! I have decided to take a fast from not only TV, but many other social networking sites that have distracted me from my schoolwork the past year and a half. I'm still unsure about whether I'm in the right major, but I feel like it will be easier to tell if I like it if I ACTUALLY spend time doing the work without distractions!

As it is only the first week of school, and no assignments have been given yet, I must find other ways to pass the time, and this was the one that popped into my head! So here I am!

Recently, I've been exploring old photos from when I was little, and I thought I would share some with you, as it is Throwback Thursday!


in order: my first halloween // a couple of snaps of me running - I was a very active child! // me and my dad // me and my mom // me and my stuffies

I love looking over old photos, it just brings me so much joy! One thing I love about being an only child is that there is no shortage of photos from my childhood.

I hope you enjoyed them! I also hope to be back on this blog more regularly (since I have no distractions)

xoxo Sophie